bring it 2012!

if the past 48 hours are any indication of the coming year, i am ready to be amazed.  the weather has been glorious, my mom got good health news after a frightening scare and we've been surrounded by family & friends in the mellowest, happiest way - in jammies, with good food, and a roaring fire.  the kids have been happy to be home playing for hours with christmas toys, each so caught up in their own make-believe that the bickering has gone to a dull roar.

i've been happily juggling work and the kids being off school.  it isn't easy, but at least i can be here for every snack, tissue, bandaid, completed piece of artwork and every imaginary tea party. for me, it's a treat since i miss them a ton when they are in school and daycare.  working from home allows us to do both and it's been a great couple weeks of work AND play.

and in the spirit of a new year, besides burning wishes in a backyard bonfire on dec. 31st, i tried to get clear on what i wanted for the new year.  and after toying with feelings like balance and rhythm, joy and prosperity, what it really came down to was this:  i want to live fearlessly.  to give up my addiction to fear and fear-based choices and anxiety caused by fear. to recognize when it is fear taking over, breath held tight, body and psyche tight & restricted in fear.  and then to let it go.  to release the fear and - as corny as it sounds - live from love.  from abundance and hope and trust.

so i sent my mom a text on new years eve about a healthier, happier, fearless 2012.  later that night, i got a text from one of my best friends wishing for a paradigm shift...to live without fear.  yesterday, my brother came over for some new year's cheer and i asked him what his resolution was.  guess what?  yep.  to live without fear.  when my mom got here an hour later, we told her the coincidence and she smiled....she had sent that very message to a friend right before she received my wish the night before.  call it the 100th monkey or whatever you want, but i am heartened by this vibration for fearless living.  may 2012 bring fearlessness and opening and choices. 

oh, and fun.

and maybe even a baby. or two.  twins would be lovely. 

so there 2012.  bring it!

here is us, doing the happy thing on new years eve.

joy & love & fearlessness to you all.

xo

 

 

 

Comments

[julie]

we went to Amandas and she and Bob had a ritual fire for everyone to burn their message /wish /request/what ever you were leaving behind in 2011 for 2012...I swear on My Life ..mine was to let go of fear.
its the new black my friend...twins would be cute for a day and a gongshow for 20 years..one would be wonderful xxxx
PS.love that Matt is wearing his yellow sweats that he normally reserves for special occasions at our house!!

[Christine]

Same here! Amazing how many of us feel the same, and that we've all made a resolution to breathe easier this year.. All the best to you and your family! Greetings from Singapore