Brooke

magic in numbers

happy birthday matt.  i love you for lots of reasons.  even on this birthday when you aren't so happy about marking another year without having marked other important achievements that you set for yourself last year.  but i wanted to tell you this:  i believe in you.  and i believe in the magic of numbers.  we are living a happily ever after of numbers, you & me. and this is a gift to be grateful for.

our marriage is the magnet of a million tiny decisions - starting long ago and far away with people who share our blood but who we have never met.

5 generations of family that unknowingly followed each other across a growing nation, ending up in a tiny wine country town a hundred years later so that two little hippy kids could meet in elementary school.

great-great grandparents - immigrants from poland and ireland, germany and france - all of whom happened to be plopped down in the same neighborhood in duluth, minnesota and who may or may not have known each other. 

great-grandparents who made the trek across the country to california in search of who-knows-what.

grandparents who lived only blocks away from each other in the same san francisco neighborhood but somehow never knew each other.

grandfathers who worked in the same police department and never met.

parents who found their way to sonoma just as they were starting families of their own.

mothers who, at different times, loved one man who was a father figure to both of us.

a fourth grade teacher who watched over us as our eyes sparked with something that would later become love & marriage.

an astrologer who picked our wedding day & time so that our union would have its own auspicious chart.

and here we are at the tail end of those numbers, in the middle of numbers yet to come - the number 42 a fleeting milestone in comparison to all the luck that has led us here.

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marriage is an entanglement of love and exasperation in equal measure.  but when i think of all the universe has done to bring us together, i marvel at the magic of it.  i dig my heels in and know this marriage must work.  i look at you and remember you in the fourth grade - shaggy hair and pants too short for your long legs and stunning eyes and a dimpled grin - and my heart bursts with love.  and gratitude for you too. with all of this in our favor, i believe in destiny and the rightness of being together even on the days we want to kill each other.

how could a fairytale of numbers be wrong?

even our birthdays are magically symmetrical:

you born on 1-14-70.

me, 10 months later on 11-14-70.

both of us born in 1970 and our last name sevenau.  or 7-0.

and we met in sonoma - area code 707 - where we now raise our children.

if all of this could bring us together, and continue the destiny of our family tree:

(family tree & chalk art by satchel)

and give us this:

and this:

and this:

it is worth celebrating 42.  because the numbers tell us there is alot more magic in store.

happy birthday.

now i want a makeover

after all your great suggestions for inspiring new blogs, i am craving a makeover.  i feel a resurgence of wanting this blog to be as active a place as it used to be...with people commenting and sharing and even more than that, i want it to be a place that even better documents our life so the kids (and matt & i) have something to look back on later.  a virtual scrapbook and a piece of family history that actually captures the essence and mood and fun in our days. 

what i lack:

good photography skills

the ability to edit photographs with any success

any sort of technical know-how (nor a husband who happens to be a computer geek who can help) to design a blog

a sense of style on my generic typepad layout

 

what i have:

a desire to learn to take better photos

a renewed committment to the blog

a creative itch to do something with this awesome space and the amazing people who still come visit

an idea that if i could be consistent and post better photos amidst better design, then maybe i'd have more people come say hello here

so...

i'm thinking of ways to enliven things, to spruce up this space for the new year.  starting with 1) a redesign (new look, color, fonts, feel) 2) a re-dux of my 'about' page 3) new photo (since that one is 4 years old! jeanette, wish you were here to take another one) 4) and to consider several regular postings that make sense in my life...what we do in this family, and not a bland copy of someone else.

some 'columns' i'm considering are:

*school lunches - i love making the kids lunches and put alot of time into this.  it's like a love note from home everyday.  (and it often includes a real love note :)

*sunday dinners & projects with the grandparents with guest posts from my mom.  our entire family lives in sonoma and we often do fun project/cooking days all together on sundays.  since we've got very talented and crafty family members, i think the projects with kids plus our sunday menus and all the friends that drop by would make fun weekly retrospectives. 

*school clothes - what the kids wear since i'm often asked where i find their clothes and how i 'style' them

*temple's daily steeze - while i do still 'style' the kids for school, little miss temple is a pistol and loves to choose her own outfits.  this girl has some very individual fashion sense and i think she deserves a daily pic all her own!

i rest my case.

*reviving my 'hit parade' a sort of monthly review of my favorite things & new discoveries

you could help me by letting me know if there is something you read here that you'd like to know more about.  there aren't many of you, but you are mighty!

 

and now, my four new favorite blogs, thanks to all of your suggestions:

james at bleubirdvintage.  her house feels like a fun party and her son, julian - with his long hair and happy eyes, reminds me of satchel.  her lunch boxes, love notes to her kids, camp outs, birthday celebrations and special meals remind me of our house too.  i just can't photograph it like she can - nor do i sew :)  nor am i as skinny OR pretty as her either!  i love the overall balance of her blog (work, children, love, fun) and the fact that it seems like she is able to do it in real life.  if i could homeschool like her, i would. oh, and her fashion inspiration columns are awesome!!!

rockstardiaries is a beautiful blog.  again, they look like they have FUN.  and their photos are lovely.  and they have a quirky creativity and fashion sense that i love.  i'd like to figure out how to translate those beautiful moments into photos that say as much on my blog. 

melissa at dearbaby fully impresses me with her ability to be such a great mom, work long hours, look beautiful and maintain a stylish blog on a regular basis.  working as much as we do right now makes me appreciate the dedication it takes for her to mother like she does while also working full time.

and glennon at momastery has a beautiful way of mixing the spiritual with the daily grind without sounding preachy or kooky - either one.  and this post knocked it out of the park for me.  i cried my eyes out.  and would sign my name to that post if i could.  amen sister! she also devotes passion and energy towards uplifting others.  who doesn't think that is a great quality???  i am so moved by her compassion and kindness.

thanks everyone for hanging in here, and i hope i have something fun and new and interesting for you soon.

xox

 

where are my peeps???

i am blog-thirsty!  all my favorite writers have moved on, quieted down, or closed up shop.  where or where do i go to cry/get inspired/laugh/be amazed? 

right now i'm hooked on this lovely mama (not new, but new to me...i found her when googling baby girl name 'fable'...a name i've been considering if i ever get so lucky.  i first heard the name when i was hanging with the rock steady crew peeps in nyc, fable was a famous break dancer.)

so i'm begging, for a new year's gift, send me links to your favorite blogs right now.

you know me. i love:

homebirth

fashion

cooking

family

humor

all things underworld, mystical & magical

i'm at peace with death, loss and grief so those are good too

real people with messy lives

clean people with tidy lives

nothing too pretentious or too many stuffy words

religion (of any kind) is okay with  me.  as long as its not too heavy handed.

healing

health & fitness

glamour

celebrity trash

 

if you know of anything good in these areas, can you hook a sister up?

pretty please?

 

 

 

bring it 2012!

if the past 48 hours are any indication of the coming year, i am ready to be amazed.  the weather has been glorious, my mom got good health news after a frightening scare and we've been surrounded by family & friends in the mellowest, happiest way - in jammies, with good food, and a roaring fire.  the kids have been happy to be home playing for hours with christmas toys, each so caught up in their own make-believe that the bickering has gone to a dull roar.

i've been happily juggling work and the kids being off school.  it isn't easy, but at least i can be here for every snack, tissue, bandaid, completed piece of artwork and every imaginary tea party. for me, it's a treat since i miss them a ton when they are in school and daycare.  working from home allows us to do both and it's been a great couple weeks of work AND play.

and in the spirit of a new year, besides burning wishes in a backyard bonfire on dec. 31st, i tried to get clear on what i wanted for the new year.  and after toying with feelings like balance and rhythm, joy and prosperity, what it really came down to was this:  i want to live fearlessly.  to give up my addiction to fear and fear-based choices and anxiety caused by fear. to recognize when it is fear taking over, breath held tight, body and psyche tight & restricted in fear.  and then to let it go.  to release the fear and - as corny as it sounds - live from love.  from abundance and hope and trust.

so i sent my mom a text on new years eve about a healthier, happier, fearless 2012.  later that night, i got a text from one of my best friends wishing for a paradigm shift...to live without fear.  yesterday, my brother came over for some new year's cheer and i asked him what his resolution was.  guess what?  yep.  to live without fear.  when my mom got here an hour later, we told her the coincidence and she smiled....she had sent that very message to a friend right before she received my wish the night before.  call it the 100th monkey or whatever you want, but i am heartened by this vibration for fearless living.  may 2012 bring fearlessness and opening and choices. 

oh, and fun.

and maybe even a baby. or two.  twins would be lovely. 

so there 2012.  bring it!

here is us, doing the happy thing on new years eve.

joy & love & fearlessness to you all.

xo

 

 

 

ho ho ho

a sevenau christmas 2011 review.

 

preschool singing pageant

third grade assembly

advent envelopes

frosty the snowman pizzas for dinner:

satchel's pizza

temple's pizza

present for teacher

christmas cookies

christmas packages.  inspired by scottish glam and gwen stefani's new girls line for target.  tartan plaid with glitz & fur!

warm bath, christmas jammies & movie night!

lego christmas.  lego crazy!!!!

dolly christmas

finishing off the gingerbread house on christmas morning (in handmade christmas jammies from busha!)

the only 2 pictures of me from christmas...one blurry. one bad shot.

a few other shots i love...

nanny

my sister, camille with my dad in the background.

uncle shotty telling satch about his cool christmas gift - turning satchel's artwork into his own sneakers

wrapping for satchel's 'robot kit' from busha. everything needed to make robots from salvage including pliers, glue gun and decorative supplies

my mother in law, catherine

temple with christmas lipstick and sparkly bow

i think that face pretty much sums it up.

 

we love the grinch

we went into the city today to see how the grinch stole christmas - a musical.  matt, the kids, me and my father in law, bob - up early on this sunny, warm, amazing december morning. the day was a christmas gift from bob for us and the kids.  a long day of theater, union square, people watching, and all-around holiday fun...finished off with a fabulous meal at house of prime rib on van ness.  another s.f. classic.

god, do i love dr seuss! and this fabulous '70s christmastime special was turned into an even more fabulous live musical at the decrepit but still lovely golden gate theater in san francisco.

the costumes, the art deco decor, the actors - especially cindy lou who and the GRINCH himself; he was hilarious - the fun and happy crowd, the funky, gritty, gloriously sunny walk from parking lot to stage..all of it a perfect san francisco day. 

tomorrow is christmas eve and it's been a very busy week, so i'll wrap this up with a quick photo post from the day.

after the grinch matinee, we grabbed a few slices from blondie's pizza on powell street. here is satch, eating a slice of cheese under an album cover from satchmo the great.

shades of greatness.

pizza eaters

then we strolled through the tenderloin and around union square: department store windows, ice skaters, ghetto corners, glide memorial church, street performers, chess players.  the usual suspects on a city afternoon.

on one block, i found storefront after storefront of symmetrical window displays.

cupcakes:

glasses:

hats:

chess:

and then we walked in the afternoon sun while i snapped a few street candids.

temple:

satchel:

matt:

 

a great day. big hugs. now getting ready for christmas...

recipe of the week

butternut squash lasagna.

this lasagna has zero tomato or meat factor.  it is a slightly sweet, rich, buttery version of the favorite layered noodle casserole classic. i love it for how different it is from what one expects when they hear the word lasagna.  i also love how simple it is to make and how humbly elegant it looks in the pan.  slightly collapsed, with carmelized edges and a toasted, cheesey top.

(and for the record:  i stole this recipe from giada de laurentiis. you can find the link to her food network recipe here.)

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growing up in the 70's, lasagna was a staple at any potluck, dropped on porches after a birth or death, a leftover tray often in the refrigerator for a quick meal, and even one in the freezer for emergencies.  the version i was accustomed to was a variation with spinach and walnuts, sometimes tofu.  always ricotta.  and tomoto sauce with tons of garlic.

when it was time to decide what to bring to a 'spanish solstice hannukah' party last night, i decided to bring the traditional enough lasagna with a modern twist. 

here is a pictoral view of the recipe, which took about 45 minutes to prepare and another 45 or so to bake. my variations and notes are in italics.

Ingredients

• 1 tablespoon olive oil
• 1 (1 1/2 to 2-pound) butternut squash, peeled, seeded, and cut into 1-inch cubes
• Salt and freshly ground black pepper
• 1/2 cup water
• 3 amaretti cookies, crumbled
• 1/4 cup butter
• 1/4 cup all-purpose flour
• 3 1/2 cups whole milk
• Pinch nutmeg
• 3/4 cup (lightly packed) fresh basil leaves
• 12 no-boil lasagna noodles
• 2 1/2 cups shredded whole-milk mozzarella cheese
• 1/3 cup grated Parmesan

Directions

Heat the oil in a heavy large skillet over medium-high heat. Add the squash and toss to coat. Sprinkle with salt and pepper.

i started with peeled, seeded & cubed squash from whole foods to save time.

i decided to toast the squash a bit first for a deeper, brown flavor in the puree by using high heat til the sides turned brown before adding the water to simmer.

Pour the water into the skillet and then cover and simmer over medium heat until the squash is tender, stirring occasionally, about 20 minutes. Cool slightly and then transfer the squash to a food processor. Add the amaretti cookies and blend until smooth. Season the squash puree, to taste, with more salt and pepper.

i suggest an extra amaretti cookie or two plus a heavy pinch of salt.

Melt the butter in a heavy medium-size saucepan over medium heat. Add the flour and whisk for 1 minute.

Gradually whisk in the milk. Bring to a boil over medium-high heat. Reduce the heat to medium and simmer until the sauce thickens slightly, whisking often, about 5 minutes.

it took longer than 5 minutes for the sauce to thicken...and i wondered if it ever would get thick enough. trust.  do not get antsy and add more flour.  it WILL thicken to the perfect consistency.

Whisk in the nutmeg.

you can certainly use ground nutmeg, but i love to use a microplane and shave the nutmeg myself.  it smells so yummy!  just watch out for your holiday manicure.

Cool slightly. Transfer half of the sauce to a blender*. Add the basil and blend until smooth.

Return the basil sauce to the sauce in the pan and stir to blend. Season the sauce with salt and pepper, to taste.

Position the rack in the center of the oven and preheat to 375 degrees F.

Lightly butter a 13 by 9 by 2-inch glass baking dish. Spread 3/4 cup of the sauce over the prepared baking dish. Arrange 3 lasagna noodles on the bottom of the pan. Spread 1/3 of the squash puree over the noodles.

the squash puree is a little hard to spread once you have the basil bechamel sauce in the pan.  i resorted to plopping heaping spoonsful and hoping that it would spread evenly while cooking.  it worked out just fine.

Sprinkle with 1/2 cup of mozzarella cheese. Drizzle 1/2 cup of sauce over the noodles. Repeat layering 3 more times.

Tightly cover the baking dish with foil and bake the lasagna for 40 minutes. Sprinkle the remaining mozzarella and Parmesan cheeses over the lasagna. Continue baking uncovered until the sauce bubbles and the top is golden, 15 minutes longer. Let the lasagna stand for 15 minutes before serving.

sadly i don't have a final photo of the lasagna when cooked.  since i brought it uncooked to our holiday party, i forgot to take a snap of the final product.  however, i'm making this again on christmas eve so i'll make it up to you.

 

week in review

just a few notes from our week.

 

mornings and something like organization.

we like to sleep late - as late as possible - on school mornings.  so rather than force myself out of bed earlier than i like, i do my prep the night before.  planning breakfast, laying out clothes, pre-packing as much of lunch as possible, setting the thermoses out by the tea kettle to be filled with hot water in anticipation of hot lunch filling them. 

after dinner the kids join me in their room, opening dresser drawers and picking their outfits for the next day.

it occurred to me that these tiny, mundane chores are actually the real moments of our life.  not posed family portraits or staged smiles in front of a camera, but worthy of capture nonetheless.  so i started snapping a shot of the kids clothes, laying side by side, ready for the morning. here are a couple days from last week:

and here is temple wearing outfit #2 (note two different colored socks...her choice.  with metallic gold sneakers. she is also wearing - not one - but three tiny topknots in her hair.  again, her request.)

 

an artist 'au naturel'

the other day satchel said he felt like drawing a naked lady and asked me if that was wierd.  for a moment i considered whether he was being silly, doing 8 1/2 year old boy things.  but i decided to let it play out.  to see what he would do.  so i told him that people have been drawing the nude body for ages and that is isn't silly.  it is art.  that he should go ahead and explore his vision.

this is what he came up with:

nude 1.

breastfeeding mother.

(i am particularly smitten the baby's tiny butt crack!)

the next day, he wanted to try again. 

nude 2.

woman lounging on bed with ceiling fan.

and here he is photographing his work on my iphone

 

fashion & beauty

about a year and a half ago, i became smitten with oribe products and they have become my mainstay - shoving bumble out of the way.  recently, i have added a new beauty product to my hair regime.  this one comes from the luxe euro line, davines, from italy.  while my hair needs moisture, it also needs volume & bounce.  i have found the perfect conditioner!  it smells divine, it gives bouncy moisture & shine...and it is the most gorgeous shade of pink.  i love looking at it in the shower every morning.

for my birthday last month, matt took me shopping and i bought this slinky, crepe blazer with 3/4 length sleeves and a satin lapel. i wore it this week over a cheap trick tee and my most favorite jeans by mother denim. since we don't have a full length mirror at home, i decided to take snap of the blazer after i snuck into the men's room to pee (thus the urinal in the background.)

 

24 hour flu.

it's been going around.  some crazy, wild, quick & dirty stomach bug that's taken down a bunch of people i know.  poor little temple.  she got it.  and i don't know what it is about my kids, but they get so stoic and sweet and brave when they are sick.  matted hair, sweaty jammies, barf and all the rest, she was just irresistable.  and i'm happy to say it really did last only overnight.

i wish i had taken a picture of her, holding onto her barf bowl for dear life.  while she only puked a few times in 24 hours, she carried the bowl around - everywhere - for 48.

 

basketball has taken over our lives.  uh, i mean, basketball season is here.

matt was a great basketball player and so was his brother, jon.  with the height and the athletic ability from both sides, it was only a matter of time before my son became a jock..and my life would be spent feeding temple first and keeping dinner warm for matt & satch.  that weekends would be devoted to sitting in bleechers and cheering. only a matter of time before i'd cry happy tears because my son scored his first 2-point basket and i would watch proudly while my husband (who is coaching) gave sound advice and steady encouragement to the kids on his team.

here is satch at his basketball game this morning:

and temple munching on an apple while we watched the game:

 

poet (and a babyhog) in our midst

dear satchel,

you are the most perfect love letter of an 8 year old boy.  in spite of being almost 9 and all the moodiness that creeps in at times, you are a pure shining soul of love.  through & through.

i've never seen a boy your age that is more of a baby hog than you.  you pick them up with confidence and you manhandle them.  making them gurgle, coo and laugh.  esepecially your littlest cousins who you saw this week.  little dude hugs for jake who is 2, and lots of jiggling and walking and airplane rides for baby giles. 

 

 

this week you came home from school with your first poem.  your teacher taught you how to rhyme and gave you the assignment of writing a poem about the season.  this is yours (typos and all):

 

thankfulness

i am thankfulness for the things my hands can hold.

pumpkins, oranges and leaves so gold.

i am thankful for the things my ears can hear.

a song nice, far and near.

i am thankful for the thing my eyes can see.

in the forst nice and free.

 

 

dear satchel, i am thankfulness for you.

before its too late...advent ideas

i know i already posted this morning, but it occurred to me that i should refresh this post with ideas for celebrating advent before it is too far into the season to be worthwhile. 

this hodgepodge of ideas is a blend of my catholic roots, my mom's waldorf influence, a love for ritual & all things beautiful, and my own curiosity that leads me to seek out the commonalities in spiritual traditions to find the essential seed of truth and source, creating some blend of it all for my own family holidays. 

beyond this, it is a really fun way to get creative with your kids through the holiday season.  making your own advent calendar is a blast!  a little labor intensive on the front end, but you get SO much out of the season by pacing yourself and planning a special activity each day.

i'm also sending you to these christmas photos and to these where you can see the results of some of the projects i mention in my advent list...ice suncatchers and paper chains and snowflakes on the windows and even advent envelopes on the fireplace mantle in the background.

a version of this blog post went into the northshore news in vancouver that christmas and it has been published twice in school newsletters with people coming back to ask me for more ideas.  considering the overwhelming interest in the advent idea, i thought some of you might like a little seasonal inspiration.

please send me your advent ideas too...i'm always looking for new additions to our routine :)